Tuesday, 22 October 2013


So this is the first time I've blogged/wrote a diary entry.
They say there's some things you just can't put into words and I never really understood what that meant until now.
As a start, life's had it's ups and downs recently so be it with losing my job and lack of money to support myself etc, I feel so bad having to rely on my parents to help me out whilst I haven't had work and sometimes they're somewhat sceptical to help me as others they're more than happy. I don't see my dad much but he's always willing to help me if he can. Sometimes I do want to see him more often than I do though.
But now I've got a new job, and I start Monday, I'm slightly daunted at how it's
Going to go, what's going to happen or whether I'm even going to like it, I really hope I do, I mean I never saw myself being a HCA, but the idea of helping people is something I can see myself doing, I just know it's not the easiest job to do sometimes.
But the main point in this post is to really talk about what's drove me to it.
Who ever knew one girl walking into your life could flip it upside down and make everything great, before she turned up yeah things weren't going bad or anything, but it felt like something was missing.
Until the day she did turn up, from the first time I saw her I just knew I wanted her to be a part of my life, the way she looked, which was absolutely incredible, this girl is beautiful to say the least. The first time we met, we got talking and clicked. So we exchanged numbers etc, and it just went great, I was sceptical at first because I didn't think she would like me. But little did I know I was speaking to a girl I had so much in common with, everything from music, dress sense, just general little things like foods etc, and it was as this point I knew in my head that if I kept speaking to her, I'd like her.
Now the girl I'm talking about is now my girlfriend issie, and to put it simply, she's amazing.
I read a post tonight about soulmates and it literally described the way I feel about her and how she says she feels about me too. And in that post it says that if they're your soulmate it's hard to find the words to express how you feel about them, that's literally how it is. I can explain to an extent of the fact i literally think the world of her, and without a doubt I love her down to every last bit of her, even the things she thinks are flaws! But no words can truly express how I feel, because every time I try, there's isn't words strong enough or have enough meaning behind them to explain it. I just always hope that the same things go through her head!
She is my rock, and I try my hardest to be hers at all times whenever she needs me because without her I am, for lack of better words 'bread without butter' she completes me, that one piece in the jigsaw puzzle to finally make it complete. It's because of her that ive ended up in this job because she gave me the motivation and encouragement to keep pushing on when I felt like I could do nothing more. That's what you call an amazing person to be with, and I couldn't think of anyone better.
This is the girl I want for the rest of my life hands down. She's fantastic.